Funeral (a)

 Got home, mom has been lying in cold coffin, in her cremation day, I saw a familiar face, I knew the moment of her death will be very painful, she was carried away to be cremated at the time, I know is Ganchangcunduan. again see a bunch of crushed bones of the dead mother, she finally dragged her out of the body later in life, I know her soul had to go to heaven. my mom should be happy, because she would never hurt .
much regret and remorse, never left me. April a month back home, I cried her old, my intolerance for her will never get her to forgive, I can not for her to do the slightest thing.
along,UGG boots, she regarded me as her pride and pride, but she never gave me the opportunity to love her. She old, in need of our time, my brothers and I did not give her enough to rely on, so no worries she's never left.
home that day at noon, back to her husband and children pack heat the last dumpling, or have been familiar the taste, I also eat a few, no tears, because really think she is still alive.
when a person is the most sad, wake up every two p.m. could not begin to cry, Mom I just left that last I feel bad and sad 表情.
I'm sorry my poor mother, has always been my narrow-minded, Lao She cried, she always felt Xinyan too, as a woman, in fact, She was fragile, she not only mother, and she, like me, a woman. and I always felt that she was the mother, to all-inclusive, it should be all-inclusive, but never considered she is also a sentimental woman, so I understand the time, she has forever left.
When forced to cry,Discount UGG boots, when deliberately creating an atmosphere of sadness, people will become hypocritical, funeral culture in the rural areas become more vulgar, speakers playing the popular music group, the team cast singing songs, dancing disgusting dresser dance, many people came to offer condolences, no tears, usually on the mother cried with vibrato of address, pretending to cry and the tears did not exist hand-rubbed to replace me bursts of grief is offensive, not because of true and false, but so too the form of a farewell.
I have a way to change? not. This vulgar, I can not.
out playing the trumpet, to profess Christ The mother must not like us in this way with her farewell, then, that I was a complete outsider, even if she does not like that, there is no way to change. I, no mother, has become an irrelevant outsider hh
family have not been together in this together, brother sister, brother Yisow, Sansao third brother, nephews and me and husband take the child, the family meal on a table, the first time in many years, cohesive but just not up to the time of the mother. bid farewell to his mother that evening we eat together. brother's young son than my small children a year old, relatively sticky Yisow, these days, tired of my two daughter-in again when wrapped around her little nephew, she hit the child. My children, said: Second, is the stepmother, aunt, cousin of the old play. Yisow had a stomach fire, shouting at my kids: Go! I not stop the tears to flow, I know Yisow not deliberately, I take their children to go to the back room, Mom passed away, I became their house guests hh Yisow wiping her tears could not help me to apologize, saying that did not mean the hh
one, June 2, mother's memorial day
son had hand, foot and mouth. May 28 to send his son to kindergarten, the kindergarten door met a few children to be brought home, that is The doctors found nursery red dot mouth. I take my son to wait in line inspection, the results of your mouth son was found to have red spots, go to hospital, diagnosed with hand, foot and mouth.
students graduated years before the organization meeting a few days , anxious lit tonsil abscess fluid lost for three days, still sick, my son would have a hand, foot and mouth. May 31 son began headache stomach pain, do not eat. to bring Capital Institute of Pediatrics and Children's Hospital saw several times, say like a heavier hand, foot and mouth, hand, foot and mouth took the medicine and the treatment of worm medicine to fight until June 2nd son or stomach pain, headache, and then his son went to Children's Hospital in early areas.
arrived in the hospital the door was probably about half eight in the morning, the third brother received a phone call: go home, mother was seriously ill, I am now on the site, you Sansao called and said mom fell. the third brother did not wait for me After saying a word in one breath, he repeated the phrase: go home. not for a third brother has phoned to report that Big Brother could not get through, I said I'll notice big brother. I played a sister of the phone,UGG boots cheap, answer the phone is big brother, the third brother that I told him mother fell seriously ill, let him go home. has not the spirit of the son broke free from my arms: my mother, grandmother fell it? grandmother's leg broken it? my tears streaming down, Mom something must be wrong, or will not let me and my brother back. I have just returned to Beijing from his home less than a month ago and the mother lived in the home more than a month, big brother Tomb Sweeping Day is also back home.
worried about your child sicker, my husband with his son in the queue, infusion, I dare not to call home, as has been holding on and hoping the psychological: Mom probably fell, very serious, perhaps broken leg. Let husband hit mom home phone, the phone is a stranger, just said go home.
son infusion when the phone is not connected on the two calls, call from a neighbor Lanzhou, I played in the past, he has asked me where, tell him to his son in the hospital transfusion, I asked my mother if he was trouble, he said he was at school, he did not know, let me called home to ask to know. finally lost his son over fluid, went straight to the Beijing Railway Station to buy train tickets.
worried mother trouble, but do not want to believe she will really trouble. son has been low-grade fever for two days without food, fear of Kazuo discuss increasing HFMD I go home, go home to see what the situation say.
bought a two p.m. ticket home. handset on the husband that, pick up a look are the two missed calls, a text message, phone call from a cousin, also a cousin sent text messages, the content is this: just know Ergu died, very sad. girl, I just hit the phone with the big brother, big brother in the car to go home ,UGG boots clearance, I will go back soon. sister, grief! at the Beijing Railway Station ticket hall holding my husband and son crying hh