I looked at Lin Nan, this time, she seemed so helpless and weak, with bright eyes completely immersed in memories of the ups and downs, full of misery and desolation. I think maybe I came up hug her, give her a hint of warmth. I did not, I even untouched, because this time I was cold and drowned.
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know Lin Nan for a long time, I was the first time heard so much about her story.
Lin Nan about her first love. She said that she always nameless young girl was attracted, until it encounters the first woman in life and with what happens after share hide the hearts of twenty years to find a strange feeling exports and answers. She had this deep fear, but a deeper well can not help being attracted to women. love when the woman was not her love, But she, like opium smoking like a fascination with her fingers, unable to stop the fall in lust in the. until I meet her first love of the woman, her name is Yu.
I feather the name of both strange and familiar, because the time to Today, Lin Nan, many passwords are: 520yu1314. at the end of 1314 Notes to the string of my heart burns like fire.
Although she did not carefully describe the story about the birds, but all are clearly explained, All birds have become all the deep scar her heart. She said, you have too many birds and different, so she did not you sunshine, birds eyes are always full of desolate sinking. She is an extreme pessimist , the attitude of always fend for themselves to live. Lin Nan, said Yu always so I can not help the distressed!
I quietly listened to her heart was like an instant like a moth-eaten full of holes .
Lin Nan, said Yu because a man left her, because that man is the feathers of the economy. She said she and feather of love built in a man's shoulder, when the accident the man collapsed, their Love is also a natural follow collapse. She said she had to Yu in Beijing wandering for a few months, but in the end even the side are without the see. Yu unsympathetic to her pain to be added, but she can still pained her helpless . She said that if nothing happens, then the man they love can be sustained for a long time.
I looked at Lin Nan, this time, she seemed so helpless and weak, with bright eyes completely immersed in memories the ups and downs, full of misery and desolation. I think maybe I came up to hold her, give her a trace of warmth. I did not, I even untouched, because this time I have been cold submerged. < br> Yu departure, Lin Nan's feelings start to let go and started the frenzied chase boredom. She began to make love, dating and trying to get their friends to be happy again. This is no doubt in harm than good, the more the more they indulge empty , loneliness and longing as tightly wound as a snake Lin Nan, she was eager to find a man like a feather to the same broken-down mental and physical salvation.
Aqiu is her second meeting with friends, a year ago, She took advantage of the opportunity to travel to Beijing together for a few days with the Aqiu and established relationship. Although impossible to fall in love with Ah Qiu Lin Nan, in fact, she did not fall in love then anyone, because her heart had been withered away with the feather. She just needs someone to accompany and miss with her as long as you want for your heart contraction inject some fresh blood, to make it start beating. But a mistake is only wrong, she should not be everywhere to Yu standards of others. in this world everyone is unparalleled in the world, and no one who can replace.
two months later, Lin Nan tired again. She was getting bored with the phone Aqiu and love word Aqiu became serious and she felt a burden. In the third target appears, she did not hesitate to make a break with the Aqiu. And then it just jumped into the Aqiu in love happiness. Lin Nan said that Yu gives me the pain made me forget the pain of others will, the pain of lost love makes me cruel and cold. is love flying Aqiu track, driven by the great inertia, a long period of time can not stop. her tears and wait in exchange for Lin Nan's phrase: we do a lifetime friend. Aqiu actually believed, at a later day, to do all in the name of a friend the lover-like devotion and care. remember when she first saw Ah Qiu said the sentence: deep sigh, but I do not know whom! mouth is filled with the bitterness of the tobacco, the room smelled of thick smoke, Lin Nan's cold like a smoke, choking me.
her words to sum up with this period of past time. She said I was totally not me, just like the devil to control the body. around all kinds of men and women will only make me more mad and helpless, and more fear and helplessness. all day, the nightmare of living in a mess , as if the world into a stay night. even if living in neon downtown, but still stretch of desolate!
her words like a painting of a period, followed by silence makes me feel the whole world into a deadly silence.
may be too long she said, look let me forget any reaction. or should I get angry and even angry, maybe I should envy or even painful, or I should re-examine your own role, perhaps I She used to make up only a sad wretch ... in front of Lin Nan made me feel strange, and she frankly today overturned a long time since I imagine the perfect self-righteous. as if all zeros, Lin Nan Lin Nan is no longer and I? Who am I?
Looking at her, look at this and I get along with day and night for half a year-old woman, she is still so beautiful that if at the static still innocent child, her gentle eyes never seem to change, but this time, I feel the cold biting.
the moment, more in love with you. lofty of me, even on this topic become tacky.
trustworthy. I'm leaving you, would you blame this outcome retribution? to punish me. before they know exactly what you are. You are worthy I poured my whole life that I want to spend my whole life, I love the Terminator! I've never felt so safe before, I can give you the feeling of dependence, I would like to stop by your side forever. This is all before, have not given me the feeling! BoA, not because I doubt I have the feeling you? I said, you is not the same with them.
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